Setelah sekian lama gak blogging...

Setelah sekian lama gak publish new post, ceritanya nih ada anak galau yang mau curhat soal keinginannya buat move on....
Okay, I don't wanna seem so cheesy, tapi entah kenapa it screws my mind lately.
Aku benci fakta bahwa aku selalu bicara dan bertingkah seolah-olah "it doesn't bother me" tapi kenyataannya malah jadi tambah galau (anak SMA banget ya)

bilang ke adis: "aku capek dis njalanin ini semua seolah-olah aku punya pencapaian, padahal nyatanya aku gak tau mau ngapain. pengen move on aja...."
terus adis njawab: "go find your achievement and achieve what you want!"
aku: "hell yeah, koyok aku nduwe tujuan jelas ae -____-"

BTW, ADIS UDA PUNYA PACAR LHO! PACAR PERTAMANYA PULA :''') *ceritanya terharu nih*

hahahaha. lol. teman satu perjuanganku ternyata berhasil lebih cepat daripada aku.....

jadi kesimpulannya: i'm tired of loving someone without knowing what to achieve, while i'm less happier now. i think i'm gonna end this shit soon

-husna yuni w.-

"Loving someone who is way too good to be true is meaningless"

"Why?"

"Because a person like that is almost perfect. It's just like trying to reach the highest star in the sky. Unreachable"

"But it's not impossible. It's 'high' yet still reachable!"

"However. Loving him is aimless"

"But you're happy with that, aren't you? Love is about the happiness that you get, rite?"

"Mmm, yes, then?"

"That happiest feeling that you get when you talk with him or even just to see him smile---that's meaningfull, dumb dumb!"

"But..."

"Just listen to me this time. Love is not about any official relationship. However those people are dating because they're happy with what they feel inside their heart, no matter what."

"I know about that, btw"

"So don't stop loving him just because you think it's meaningless. That happiness is meaningful. Because it's about you, not about him or anyone else. People always make it seem pointless. But as long as you're happy, why not?"

"Mmmm, i got it! It's about the love of mine. I'll stay happy with it! Thanks! :)"

-husna yuni w.-

i'm not that kind of girl guys fall in love with...

i ain't that pretty girl in cute dress
i'm just flowing along with my mess

i ain't that girl who will blow you away at the first sight
i'm just expecting you to see my inner light

she's flawless
i'm reckless

she's lovable
i'm unreachable

she needs no effort to make you fall for her
because she got everything...

whereas i'm here toiling just to make you see me
because i got barely nothing...

it's not enough after all,
just to make you see me...

i ain't her yet i'm better being myself
someday someone will love me for the way i am. someday...

let's end this melancholy and back to the reality


-husna yuni w.-

bla bla bla

"your ass must get jealous of all the shit that comes out of your mouth"

 try to not give a shit, okay?

-husna yuni w.-

It's been so long since my last post!

quote of the day:

"pay more attention, and slowly you'll understand"

it's hard when you have to understand hundreds different things around you. you can't just get into them and easily blend with them. it's not simply like that.
for me, it becomes harder when some strangers don't want to reveal their true color. no, the hardest part is knowing that some people i used to know slowly turn into strangers. some are still strange...

however, trying to savor the new spices of my life is the best way to get my convenience. don't need to think too much about it. so what's the point of writing this post?! just fuck off.

-husna yuni w.-

when a 14 y.o. girl starts to mumble,,,

I have an unpublished love story.
I keep it as a draft so far.
Yes, only 3 of my friends who have read it...

Well, most of the people know me as an ordinary girl who acts crazy (sometimes), but definitely, i've been single for 14 years old! Haha, yeah, i've never had a boyfriend! (you may laugh if you want to) -____-
But hey, it doesn't mean that i don't know anything about love. Uh, come on! Having a boyfriend is just a matter of time! No need to rush!

Anyway, my unpublished love story is not a plain or a boring story. It's umm..... Dramatic... Epic... Absolutely pathetic... -____-
However, it's a great love story that i've ever had. No relationship, but still full of tears (sometimes) hehehe.

No, this ain't a common story of a common teen.
This ain't a gimcrack old story.
I'm proud to be the hero of this story.
Not all of the chapter is pathetic.
Most of those chapter are epic.
Yes, this story is being written until now.
No way to stop.
Because I write without pen.
I write using every breath i take.
So i'm not afraid of running out ink.
Let me keep writing.
The story hasn't ended.
Not yet...


-husna yuni w.-

Should We Say Goodbye?

Should we say goodbye?
I don't know whether it is my fate or not. But i just don't wanna let go. I wanna keep being close like we used to be. I still want to see your smile and hear your laughter. I still want to be your best 'place' to cry on.
I still want to be 'something' for you. Because you are my 'something', more than just something. But maybe i am your nothing. Don't you know how precious my years with you so far? I can't just let it go. I can't let those memories start to fade away, and at last, it can be gone... I realize everything will be change. Somehow i'm afraid you'll get further and further. I better go away than see you fade away and leaving all of the memories behind. Don't let me go, won't you?

Maybe it hasn't been 3 years. But for me, it was precious and unforgettable. No thing's worse than watch you gone with the strangers...


-husna yuni w.-